Monday, 29 March 2010

oops I did it again

Yup, my desire to see the good in people is backfiring again, cheap shots, lies and Bs are back, because of what I heard last week and saw this weekend. I really should learn lessons, shouldn't I.

Friday, 26 March 2010

It's not easy being green....

So sung Kermit. and no, it's not easy reinventing yourself either. changing your entire life to fit a new role, breaking with your previous self and emerging as a new person, putty aside pettyness, finding the balance between swallowing things down, and letting out enough in the right way so you don't choke.

What has prompted this? I opened my mouth and tweeted something before thinking, upsetting three people as a result. two of them, well, yes, I understand why and regret what I wrote because it put bridges two steps back, but the third person was totally unexpected, and that is giving me a lot of pause for thought. Why, because that person is someone I actually give a damn about how I am seen through their eyes, yes, warts and all, but even so, If tweeting what I tweeted shows me to be a nasty person, which I am not, then I really need to think about how I am comming across. brain does really need to be engaged.

Other things too, I need to curb a lot of myself, because it can cause offence give out the wrong vibes, a few bad things I may have picked up along the way, I think I just need to relax more, live in the moment, and stop being paranoid, or people will be turned away, and I don't want that.

So, more lessons to be learned, and this time, I have dealt myself a few dud cards.... wake up Ronnie!