So, come back from a great week in devon with the kids, they enjoyed it as did I, walking, horseriding, climbing, great stuff. you would expect, when I dropped them off, ex to ignore what she was doing with HIS eldest and pay sole attention to her natural kids, but no... ho hum.....
What else, well, although I am trying to stay conciously single, and nor looking for a partner, I miss the closeness, the waking up together more than the going to bed together, the whole being part of a couple thing, but, I am not going to let that consume me, have too much else going on right now...
But, people who I am liking in that way recently are either not available, not interested in me, or both, or I am reading signals wrong or all three, I don't know. I really don't get subtlty on that score, never have, I am too polite sometimes, and need clear "green light" or "red light" .. them comes paranoia, and kablowie... not that I lack in confidence, just in subtle signal reading.
So, all in all, feeling a bit low tonight, oh, and pb and honey sandwich does NOT go with red wine...
